Kesalahan Baru

Temen atau Pacar 

Ini tuh baian dimana gw harus pilih antara temen gw atau cowo gw. It is hard for me. Aku ga tau kenapa in my mind kok pinter banget sih kaya udah tau kedepannya gimana gt. Sedangkan mereka aja fine ga nannya tentang pertanyaan gw tadi.

Dari situasi gw bisa baca dan dari kesalahan gw yang baru gw sadari setelah sampai dirumah. Gw udah bisa baca nanti kedepannya gimana. Maybe I am wrong dengan kedepannya gimana, aku ga tau. I need someone kasih tau aku kalo harus gini or gitu. Aku ga mau kehilangan temen gw dan pacar gw. Gw sayang bingittt sama mreka berdua.

I enjoy spending time together with them. Memang it is extra perhatian sm temen gw. Mungkin itu yang cowo ngak bisa lakuin cause ada gw di tempat itu dan dia ga terlalu pentingin. Sedangkan cowo gw his cool aja.

Kemaren cowo gw ga tawarin untuk cariin taksi tapi malah liatin and gw tuh ga bisa kaya gt. Kalo ada temen gw, gw pingin dia bisa ngertiin suasana siapa yang in charge gt. Well last night is me yg take charge. Dan it doesn’t go well. Apa yang salah?? Kata cowo gua because I’m trying to hard. What’s wrong with that? Kan tujuannya baik… Smua salahnya dijatohin ke gw lagi. Gw merasa dia ga support feeling gw maksudnya bukannya bikin enteng malah berat2in. Dan gw ga tau dia bakal segitu annoying nya kemaren malem. Begitu pula dengan temen gw… tapi she have a point juga dan kemaren gw sadar karna dia juga. I sure want to keep her as my friend because she knows the right and the wrong. Kalo di situasi kaya kmrn gw memang butuh my friend.

Sekarang gw stay jarak sama temen gua dulu cause gw ga mau bikin trouble apa2 dan sama cowo gw, gw mau break dulu… Biar dia ga perlu pusing dan smoga bisa ngertiin gw dan naik level kita ketemu di level yang sama.

Next week its gonna be okay. I prayed. 

You think You Understand ??

You don’t know me.

Boys will be boys, apalagi cowo yang sensi an. Apa lagi cowo yang ga bisa atur prioritasnya apa. Gw ga suka boys. Skali-kali gw dapet yang udah man up. It hurts, I’m sensitive… Is this love? Is this relationship with a different gender feel like? Because I’m telling you it’s hard. You probably hate me after read this or have pity on me. Please don’t. I am fine.

He makes me feel I don’t have anybody and my family is just others distraction to my success. He teach me to be more standing up for myself and I started to solving my own problem alone. When I need him his not there… I waited, waited waited and more problems comes. I waited to tell all my story I waited to ask him his suggestion I waited to meet him. But what? None of that happen, if yes none of this happen to me and I would not feel like this now. He did this to me?

I can not be the nice girl anymore with him. I learn untuk lebih tegas… punya pendirian sendiri. He don’t understand yet. It is hard to make it understand when he still less age. This is complicated.

I’ve been to the happy place when I and my family can share our thougts and I like share most of my day and lovelife with mom. Bring my boyfriend to home and not waste a lot of money, I cook and he watch, talk with my family.

Phone rings, notification from couple app… I can barely answer. I don’t want to make this more worst this enough. Technology keeping us apart, not helping but destroying. It is not professional to handle problems at phone. Apa lagi ini hubungan ttg perasaan. I don’t know. I’m not expert. And Im quit to be expert and to be knowing everything about relationship. Mol, Fen n friends they shut me down. Just mind your own business okay. Let’s just have fun just be you when u around me(to mike). I’m not your enemy.

It is complicated.

QOQO

Thought

Hi guys,





So,  I met my family Patricia and Ebbetha. I really happy, to meet them. okay so, I wanted and know that I have to home at 10 well actually I went to PS to watched U.N.C.L.E with family (turns out they already buy me a tics and I didn't know that.) This is the problem.. I hope I can be patient with all of them because I can not spend time with them all. I want to spend time with them but hey I have my priority. I choose my core family then my cousins thats of corse.

20 July 2014 (random thought)

I learn a lot when I already have boyfriend, do you?

time is important and spending time an hour is not enough. We share , we care each other. 

I always think that I can go off without him. I always try to not always depend on him but just be me and I can do it by myself without his help. 

Don't afraid to look back . There are many good things you can learn. 

Lanjut aja lah lal

HELLO THERE

 My day is great I can spend the whole day at home . HAHAHA well.... pasti ban yak dari malian mikir, kenapa ni org malay seneng di rumah seharian... hmmm gw cape sin jadi kepingin di rumah aja, habis nonton world cup . I don't really know what should i type here (bingeing bgt log parahh) *mikir*

 I'm gonna talk about my day , share I woke up at 12pm idk if u believe me or not cuz ngk biasanya gw bangun jam segitu, temen2 gw tau gw biasanya pagi bgt or ngk lewat jam segitu. after that ehmmm spa yaaaa *spelling correction rada annoying

 * masa td gw mau tulis "rada " malah "dada" apa coba. maaf bacot yak lanjut trs gw chill di kamar dulu tidura, denger lagu , main my tom kitty di iphone lol, beresin kamar i guess hahaa trs gw laper deh turun kebawah cari makanan and look what i found... just a chicken like always that my aunt made and I'm kids bored with the food and not only just me but garry my cousin also feel the same.. 

*im blessed with her attention and the effort* 

 I made noodle , its a cup noodle and then i eat the chicken that she made and also broccoli , carrot and rice. Soo, i eat a lot in the evening. While I'm eating I'm watching Zoe project at star world... 4ish I grab a dvd called NOAH , and while I'm watching i eat ham and bread then i eat dessert (JELLY) hahahha *ngk lucu sih lal 

 **** tau ga artinya lal ? itu tuh LOL tp temen2 gw yg bikin jd keikutan deh *** kreatip ya *** LANJUT 

and then my aunt Nita came and we watch the movie together :) singkat cerita udah malam (((( I made dinner for my mom and garry and they like it :D yeayer udah sih itu aja hahahaa cumin rada ngk jelas ya ini blognya tp gpp gw mau type aja. 

FYI gitoh

 I had a nice calm day at my house , I can meet mom , cindy , Mike , cousins

TAU AHHH stress hahaha
gw type di HTML ada space skrng ngk ada

sorry i don't want to fix it i hope u understand
xxx

4day's left UN!!

Nooo! Tidaaaak hfff sebal.. Gmana ya rasanya ud ngepost bnyk bgt ampr brp paragraf trs ke close ke buka tab yg lain aaaaarrrg!!! It's soo mnyebalkan, gini nih kl ngepost pake itouch haha mau gmna lagi, jd td tell about my day and all subject for un the diffrent thn lalu dgn thn smp skrng.. Trs apa yg buat kita ngk bored blajar.. jadi maleskan nii ketiknya -_- but yasdhlah ngk bisa diapa"kan :) just want to say goodluck all yg mnghadapi UN! Cheers!
Habis un kita freee!!! hahahaa :D don't forget to pray to God because He is who made/make us :):) okeey then see yaa again with happy smile, relax we can do it! (pesan bagi yg ingin buat dr itouch, jgn lupa di copy jd kl ke close bisa di paste lagi hahaa)

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