You think You Understand ??

You don’t know me.

Boys will be boys, apalagi cowo yang sensi an. Apa lagi cowo yang ga bisa atur prioritasnya apa. Gw ga suka boys. Skali-kali gw dapet yang udah man up. It hurts, I’m sensitive… Is this love? Is this relationship with a different gender feel like? Because I’m telling you it’s hard. You probably hate me after read this or have pity on me. Please don’t. I am fine.

He makes me feel I don’t have anybody and my family is just others distraction to my success. He teach me to be more standing up for myself and I started to solving my own problem alone. When I need him his not there… I waited, waited waited and more problems comes. I waited to tell all my story I waited to ask him his suggestion I waited to meet him. But what? None of that happen, if yes none of this happen to me and I would not feel like this now. He did this to me?

I can not be the nice girl anymore with him. I learn untuk lebih tegas… punya pendirian sendiri. He don’t understand yet. It is hard to make it understand when he still less age. This is complicated.

I’ve been to the happy place when I and my family can share our thougts and I like share most of my day and lovelife with mom. Bring my boyfriend to home and not waste a lot of money, I cook and he watch, talk with my family.

Phone rings, notification from couple app… I can barely answer. I don’t want to make this more worst this enough. Technology keeping us apart, not helping but destroying. It is not professional to handle problems at phone. Apa lagi ini hubungan ttg perasaan. I don’t know. I’m not expert. And Im quit to be expert and to be knowing everything about relationship. Mol, Fen n friends they shut me down. Just mind your own business okay. Let’s just have fun just be you when u around me(to mike). I’m not your enemy.

It is complicated.

QOQO